Loveable People Around Me

By: Ismie_Hazira

Diary of Ismie Hazira;

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I wanted to stay long in these phase of positive aura and vibes inside of me. To inspire, to motivate, to appreciate.
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But when the negative phase is oppressing me, I couldn't do much, except for being gloomy and dim for some days or even weeks.
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It's a big internal and emotional fight, for you to know.
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So, to share with you, my strength comes from people around me who are really loveable.

Yes, they are.

They absolutely are.

In every place I go, there are always gifts from above that has been sent by Allah, the Almighty God to this one depressed person.

A bunch of lovable people. They are sweet in their own way. They keep concerning about me. They keep nagging about my health. They keep blabbering about how I used to fell and to stumble for everywhere I go until I broke my right shoulder last year without me knowing, and been struggling with the pain. They keep mumbling how I was being insensitive to my own condition.

Yes, they are that loveable.

And because of their love, their concern, I lived.

Alhamdulillah.

No! I'm not talking about the life Allah gave me.

I'm talking about how love from people around me, do motivate me, do inspire me to stay alive, emotionally and physically.

Allah willed. I've been going through hardship, a really tough one since last year. It's still traumatizing and killing each and every inside of me until now. A risk that had been taken in, was to quit my diploma level in Syariah, in my third semester.

I'm not a diligent student, to tell you. But to manage your emotion after scoring a perfect flat pointer in a semester, before you had to quit in the next semester, isn't a joke. It requires hard work and passion and everything that matters to gain that perfect flat pointer to cope with my SPM failure, and of course, it is by Allah's will. And to face the fact that you have to leave all that hard work of yours in a blink of the eye, out of blue, isn't a funny prank, to tell you. It seemed like every little tiny effort of yours was going down the drain.

And the rest is history.

Pufffff!

My heart sank.

I quitted my studies. I left my friends.
I died. Internally and emotionally.
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What keeps me living by that broken phase; is loveable people of mine.

They keep on comforting, they did the talking, they cried whenever I did, they embraced whenever I wailed, they hugged whenever I was down.

Until some point,
I knew they could do nothing to change me as I gave up on myself.

But they are still there, each and every second.Providing spaces and chances.
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Now the point is, 'beautiful' and good people, do keep others to stay alive. Like what they did to me. And maybe that was the reason Allah said we should be good to each other like in Surah an-Nahl verse 91;

“Indeed, Allah orders justice and good conduct and giving to relatives and forbids immorality and bad conduct and oppression. He admonishes you that perhaps you will be reminded.”

There might be some strangers that are being good and kind to you than you were to yourself. 

They love. They care. They concern.
In their own way. 

And for their affection, it accidentally awakens some kind of deep feelings inside of us. 

Gratitude. Appreciation. Inspiration. Motivation.

Every positive thing that could help us to stay in our shoes, again.

And maybe, that's a wonderful feeling of brotherhood that Allah had sent, preached by Prophet Muhammad, may peace be upon him, creating us in many forms, feelings, sensitivity, affectionate, and others. 

The togetherness.
The strength that is being delivered when we love each other, for the sake of Allah.

Like the du'a of Prophet Musa to Allah, seeking for a company to face Pharaoh, then Allah gave him prophet Harun, in Surah Taha verse 29-32;

“And appoint for me a minister from my family - Aaron, my brother. - Increase through him my strength - And let him share my task -”

With Harun's strength, they preached Pharaoh, together.And for my case, Allah had increased through them, my strength to eventually stand again.

My loveable people around me, they did;
Accompany each other.
Correcting whenever things go wrong.
Advising whenever I tend to go astray.
Comforting during discomfort.

And to deduce is;
They completed me.

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You guys,
Alhamdulillah.
And thank you.

I am still living, breathing and healing.

I love all of you, even if I am unable to reply to your pm or dm, losing contacts, I hope as much as you guys helped me during my dark days, Allah would aid you in everything you do.

May Allah bless you, everyone!
I could not mention each and every one of you. But still, alhamdulillah for existing in my frame of life.

Stay loveable.
Spread the love like what you did to me.
We've got a lot more people to inspire, to keep them alive emotionally, of course if Allah wills!

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The diary of the life of Ismie Hazira.As she is blessed and grateful to know you guys in the first place.

Alhamdulillah!

This amazing thought has been shared in the author's Instagram account: @ismie_hazira